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  1. _Part of the ((Aquarion And LoneCat)) debarcle_
  3. -Three months on.
  4. +Three months on. (July 27th)
  6. LoneCat has found a new boyfriend, who is Austrailian, Athletic and a
  7. number of other things I'm not. He's also a roleplayer. You can guess
  8. where.
  10. I'm still dithering.
  12. I'm half-heartedly checking sites for how much it would cost to live in
  13. Bedford, weighing this up against the fact that I _like_ living in
  14. ((Letchworth)) and _dislike_ ((Bedford)) and am therefore on the verge of
  15. also looking for new jobs more in the London or Cambridge area of the
  16. world. This would be a ((mistake)) as the job ((I've got|EvolvingMedia)) is
  17. a good one and looks to be going places, and I've got to work pretty hard
  18. to avoid leaping from this lillypad to a new one merely because it looks
  19. more shiny.
  21. Also, I decided when LC told me about the new BF that I wasn't going to be
  22. in any fit state to make a decision for at least a month, and I've still
  23. got two weeks to run on that.
  25. So, the question is, what do I do? I really, _really_ hate being an
  26. angsting mess, so part one is probably to stop being so, but I value
  27. friendships over sanity, I suppose, so I'm reluctant to run away and
  28. -sacrifice my friendship with LC merely because I'm too clingy. Gah.
  29. +sacrifice my friendship with LC merely because I'm too clingy. Gah.
  30. +
  31. +(Two weeks later)
  32. +
  33. +Lets stop creating new pages and update the ones we've got.
  34. +
  35. +So, One Month. The current plan is to stick here until January and then
  36. +get the fuck out. In an ideal world I'd move now (There's a nice flat in
  37. +Bedford that would be perfect), but in the first place I can't afford to
  38. +move (Although I'm down to two out of four credit cards maxed, and since
  39. +it's the beginning of the month I'm not in my overdraft) I stop paying LC
  40. +back next month, and can then get down to putting money away for a deposit
  41. +and buying such things as a bed (Most of the furniture in the house is
  42. +LoneCat's). The second reason is sappier. The not-giving-a-flying-fuck
  43. +about your life thing doesn't go both ways (I just had to cancel a
  44. +gathering here because LC is going to Wolves instead. This is despite the
  45. +gathering being organised months ago and the invitation coming day before
  46. +yesterday. I'm a little bitter). And I can't abandon LC while she doesn't
  47. +know if she'll be working next month (yay contracts) and will probably have
  48. +to move in with her grandparents again, and whilst I may be angry with her,
  49. +I'm not _that_ angry.
  50. +
  51. +The third reason is the slightly less logical fact that I've moved every
  52. +year for the past five or so, and want ((2005)) to be the year that I break
  53. +that.
  54. +
  55. +Though if she gets stability and I get a cash injection, you won't see me
  56. +for dust.
  57. +
  58. +(Does that sound saner? It is, a bit. I am, a bit. I still love her, but
  59. +I've never been good at letting go completely, but I don't think I can
  60. +actually forgive her. So we move on, learn our lessons, black out the
  61. +events behind us, and keep walking)
  62. +
  63. +((AquarionAndLonecatCoda))

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